Peace

I have been struggling with peace for the past couple of weeks.  I had been focusing so much on things that don't really matter, and had lost my focus on serving and loving God.  Sometimes I get caught up in the here and now, worrying about whatever situation I am in or hating where I am at in life, and I lose focus on the reason God has put me in the places I am at and what He might be trying to teach me through those situations.  And then I get restless because I see all these things ahead of me and what I want and where I want to be in life, and I forget that none of that stuff really matters.  In the whole scheme of life, it won't matter where I lived, if I had much money or not, if I got married or not, or even how long I was alive.  All that matters is if I have loved God and done my best to serve Him and tell others about Him.  It's amazing how quickly I can lose focus.  But I was reminded today that no matter what, God loves me and cares for me.  It doesn't matter where I live, how much money I have or don't have, it doesn't matter what I have done, or who I used to be, or if anyone thinks I'm pretty or not, or even if I care to love Him back.  He loves me, no matter what.  And that is awesome, and inspiring. So I am going to try to focus on things that do matter.  Because God first loved me, I want to love others.  And in the end, people are who matter, not all the material crap that the world tell me I need to have.  And realizing this today gave me a ton of peace.  God loves me.  He has a plan for my life.  And it doesn't matter what I have or don't have, because He's got me.  And this is the realization that I want to live in.  So I am thankful for the peace I have been given.  It feels truly amazing.